It's over.

"If you are broken, you do not have to stay broken." - Selena Gomez

Been keeping myself busy these past few months. And now, I have mustered enough courage to come into terms with myself and admit that it's over between us.

These past few months have been really hard on me. I buried myself in deep hatred and self-loathing that I didn't see the light at the end of the tunnel. I think I can see it now, after many months later. I am stronger now, stronger to pull myself back up again and face the new challenges that will be thrown at me.

All we had now were fragments, fragments of memories that can never be relived. Unexpected was the word. As cliché as it sounds, I wish you all the best in everything you do. And as pathetic as it sounds, I am going to miss you like the desert misses the rain. You will hold a special place in my heart. I guess it's gonna take awhile for this heart and soul to heal. But right now, I am just gonna focus on myself and do what is best for me. Surely, everything else will fall into right places at God's own timing.

Step up your accessorizing game!

Hi guys! Been awhile, huh?

Really sorry for MIA and not updating my blog. But, I have my reasons.

I've been really busy with school's stuffs - quizzes, laboratory reports (tons of it), homework, coursework, exams, another lab reports, and many many many moreee...

Hahaha sounds more like excuses?

No, but seriously, it's been a tough and eventful year - with me starting my own online shop...  Yes, I said it right there. :)

I just started my own online shop. Yay! And actually, that's the whole purpose of this post.

To present to you my brand new online shop in Instagram. However, it's an Indonesian-based. So, for all beauties, who are in Indonesia, you guys can check us out - JustPosh

Yes, the wait is over to all gorgeous ladies out there! JustPosh is now available to help you stepping up your accessorizing game.

So, maybe some of you are wondering, why did I decide to open an online shop when I'm already busy with school's stuffs, and why accessories?

2015 - Closed.

Finally! The chapter of 2015 is coming to an end.

Whatever happened in 2015, wrapped it up. Take the good ones as memories and the bad ones as lesson learned.

Among all the years that flew by, it feels like this year is probably the fastest.  Since few years ago, I've never have a new year resolution. Every time people asked me, I would answer them with an answer as simple as, 'being a better version of me in the upcoming year.

But, this year, I have decided to pen down some of my new year's resolutions and I will be sharing it with you guys!

Here are the list :

I vow to ...

1. be a better version of me ... hahaha XD just kidding guys!

#2. Start saving money
Hahaha yeap, you read that right. I have been wanting to do this since looooonnggggg time ago but I always failed. But, this time, I will try harder hehehe as an engineering student, it is kinda hard to make time for an internship or a part time job, as there are already tons of school's works and many laboratory reports to do. I really want to start earning my own money cuz I don't want to be too dependent on my parents. Isn't it awesome to start earning and spending your own money?

#3. Learn to let go of grudges and not to overthink things.
Yes, I tend to agonize myself for way too long. Times can be hard sometimes, but agonizing over it for too long is just not productive, isn't it? I also tend to overthink things wayyyy too much. I think I can say that I'm quite a perfectionist. That's why I tend to overthink things as I don't want anything to go wrong or not happening the way I want it to. But, as time goes by, I realized that, sometimes, you just have to go with the flow.

#4. Learn to cook.

yes! Cooking - is one of an essential skills that I don't have. Thus, it is definitely on one of my resolutions. I always admire my sister and my girl friends who can cook very well. Once I am able to cook, then I'll be able to save quite a sum of money, and taadaaa- it's linked back to my first resolution (to save money). 'Kill two birds with one stone'. :)

What's love?

First of all, Merry Christmas to you guys! :) 
May your day be filled with the joy of Christmas.
Spread the love and kindness on this wonderful day.
I didn't get the chance to celebrate this Christmas with my family, but instead, exams are around the corner. *sigh*
That's alright, because it's only 16 more days till going back to my home country (Indonesia).


Okay, back to the main purpose of this post. As the title said - what is love?

I must say, it has been a rough and eventful year. So many things have happened this year, and all that happened have changed my perspective on many different things.

To be honest, my love life has been quite in a mess lately. Growing up made me realize that it is no longer about finding your prince charming, it isn't as simple as that. Instead, it's all about being with a guy who can accept yourself, a guy who will always be there through your best and worst times, a guy who will get along well with your family, a guy who is willing to sacrifice and many many many other things. It is not as simple as how I used to think about love is.  

Me - growing up as a teenage girl with a pretty decent life, there are still tonnes of things that could possibly bring my mood down. I tend to overthink things, tend to allow myself to agonize over things for way too long and I used to look for support by telling others about my sadness without thinking about the consequences that it might caused. I am a very indecisive person and tend to look for comfort and support - during my bad times, from others without thinking of the consequences. 

But through all the things that have happened this year - I have learned, I am still learning and will always learn to change myself into a better person each day.  As I have mentioned before on my first blog post, I am ready to turn over a new leaf and use my past mistakes as a lesson learned.

FIRST.

This picture says it all.

Hi there!

This shall be my first time writing on this little space - my first brand new blog at blogger.com

I will be sharing with you guys about what's happening in my life and probably, about fashion and beauty products.

I have been wanting to start blogging since loooongg time ago, but I've never found the courage and motivation to do so. I always have this fear of it isn't going to work, or it won't turn out well and many other things.